Wow......Sorry

Ok, yes I know I made a resolution to keep this up to date.....well I threw that out the window when my life turned upside down. Most of you may know by now, that I am now a single mom and that Rusty and I made a mutual agreement to get a divorce. Sometimes after you have worked so hard to make something work, that you really shouldn't have to make work, you just get tired, frustrated, and wore out. So we decided that it was best for us and for the kids to just go our separate ways. It has been a long two months trying to get on a new schedule and get adjusted, but we have managed. The kids are actually handling it very well. Rusty and I are remaining friends for the kids and want to make their life simple even though Rusty and I are no longer living together. With that said, we are accepting our new lives and working on moving on and greatly appreciate the support we have gotten.

During these last two months I have had my ups and my downs. I am learning how to be me....which is my biggest challenge because I have always put others first!!! Always cared about what others thought, and never worried much about what I want. So now, I have to make sure my children are doing good and that they are happy, but I also have to figure out what I want. I have had to work on learning to trust and most of all work on learning not to care what others think. Not caring what others think, is by far my biggest challenge. How do you get past some of the hurtful things people say during a time that really is no one's business but my own? But you know what really matters is that I myself knows what the truth is. So if people want to make up stories and talk about what really does not matter then let them. I just know that I am going to find myself now, while I am focusing on my kids!! I want them to know that mommy can still be happy even if her and daddy are not together anymore. If people can't accept the fact that I am making both myself and my kids happy, then they just need to turn and go the other way and leave us alone.

During this time, I also kind of lost my desire for photography, wanted to stay in the house and not do the things I most love. Well I can proudly say that tonight that came back, I let my dog out and much to my surprise there were tons of apple blossoms on my Honeycrisp Tree!!! So I ran in the house and started shooting.....

So after that enjoyment I am so ready for more......

Also back in April my sister Brenda and I took our first real vacation together and headed out to Las Vegas!!! We had a blast and jumped off the Stratosphere!!! Yep I did it!! 108 stories from the ground and I took the leap!!! Our next challenge together will be Sky Diving!!! Below are some pictures......I can not wait to take another trip with her, after everything that was going on around here it felt good to escape reality for awhile and just have fun. I knew my kids were in good hands and called them several times to check on them so I knew it was ok for this mommy to have a needed break and who better to take the break with then my evil sidekick Brenda!!

So until next time my friends.....